Tuesday, July 14, 2015

July | Currently



getting this.close to having a new home in the White Mountains 
feeling optimistic
wearing Teddy all over and he loves it
walking in the Fourth of July parade as a family with The Birth Center
breastfeeding while walking in the Fourth of July parade as a family with The Birth Center
snuggling the baby as much as possible
marveling at his growth
taking evening walks here and there
increasing (slowly) our distance each time 
prepping for the annual Parking Lot Sale
washing, folding, and pricing all sorts of clothing and bedding
sorting through 10 years worth of stuff I have accumulated
counting down the days until the three of us are under one roof (hopefully less than 30)
craving foods more intensely now than I ever did during pregnancy 
creating again 
reading again
tracking my steps again
looking forward to this next month and this season of change

Tuesday, July 7, 2015

No Bake "Energy Bites"

If you ask people to think of a common "side effect" of pregnancy I am sure that answers relating to increased appetite would be the most popular. That wasn't the case for me. I was really apathetic towards food. I ate healthy and made sure I was getting enough for me and the baby but I wasn't particularly ravenous or craving crazy meals while pregnant. Now that the baby is here and I am nursing it is a completely different story.

The newborn stage is a rough stage, especially for a nursing mother. Not only is the baby dependent on you for all of his/her sustenance, you are getting up several times throughout the night and you are always "on call". For me, I was left feeling exhausted, hungry, and craving all the sweets! Add in a husband currently living four hours away and I was starting to feel a little crazy. 

This is where these little nuggets come into place. I can grab a few "bites" and sit down to nurse. I can satiate my sweet tooth and urge to snack all at once. I will admit this idea isn't novel or unique. Everyone has a recipe for energy/protein balls/bites. After a few hours of going through recipes, I couldn't find one that fit everything I wanted in an easy snack and utilized on hand ingredients so I came up with my own recipe. This one uses almond butter and unsalted butter, and leaves out the coconut. 

No Bake Almond Butter "Energy Bites"
ingredients
  • 1 cup rolled oats 
  • 1/2 cup of almond butter (mine was a little "dry" since I used homemade so I did 1/3c almond butter and 1/4c unsalted butter. If you use store bought nut butter you don't need the unsalted butter)
  • 1/4 c of mini chocolate chips
  • 2 Tbsp honey 
  • 2 Tbsp flax seeds
directions
  1. Thoroughly combine all the ingredients in a medium bowl. 
  2. Chill the mixture for approximately 45 minutes to an hour. 
  3. Form the chilled "dough" into 1-inch balls. 
  4. Store in an air tight container in the fridge. 

Thursday, July 2, 2015

Summer 2015 Bucket List

It's that time of year when everyone is making and sharing their goals, checklists, manifestoes… their collection of their plans for everything they hope for in the time between May and autumn. It's been sometime since I have had an official list but today I am sharing our plans, intentions, and hopes for this summer.

In reality, my list could be pared down to one bullet point. It would read "move to the White Mountains" but I need to fill our summer with things other than fixating on finding a place to live closer to Berkeley's new job. Instead of being the only thing on the list, it's on the top. 
The rest of our Bucket List is a mixture of events we already have planned and things we want to go out and do. Also added are habits and traditions we want to start now that Teddy is here. Our list is currently living on our fridge as a daily reminder of what we want to do this summer. 

Tuesday, June 30, 2015

Homemade Almond Butter

What happens when the local grocery store switches bulk bin distributors and changes up their entire bulk section? A person might end up with a couple pounds of ridiculously cheap almonds. And what to do with all those almonds? Well, this person chose to use some of those almonds to make almond butter! The process is simple and really only requires one ingredient. Once you've got it down there are any number of ways to make any flavors you want. For me, I prefer oven roasted with sea salt! However, honey, cinnamon, and ginger are all great choices for add-ins.

Oven Roasted Almond Butter
ingredients
  • 2 cups raw almonds
  • 2 tsp sea salt
directions
  1. Spread almonds in a single layer onto an ungreased baking sheet. Bake for 6-8 minutes in a 350* oven. Remove from oven and allow to cool. 
  2. Once cooled, place almonds into food processor. Blend on high for several minutes occasionally stopping to scrape down the sides. 
  3. Continue to blend until the almonds are the consistency of play dough. This is when you add in the salt and any other flavorings you want. 
  4. Blend for just a few more minutes until the butter comes together. 

Sunday, June 14, 2015

June | Currently


packing all the things 
searching for our future home in the woods
navigating motherhood
getting through this pseudo-solo parenting gig
loving baby snuggles. 
taking in the new baby smell
thankful for our Fire Family
celebrating seven years for us and one month for the baby
counting down the days until the three of us are under one roof
making summer plans 
eating at all our favorite places 
trying to stick to the diet changes
starting a new reading list
putting things in order

Thursday, May 28, 2015

Day in the Life | May 12, 2015

Day in the Life is an in depth memory keeping project started by Ali Edwards that captures all the details of a single day in one's life. I have written about this project and participated in it several times in the past with mixed results. This time around I was hoping to capture a look at our last few days at just two and my only "plan" was to share via Instagram. Little did I know what this day would bring.


7:50am // As is normal for days off, I've been awake for 2 hours already and he is still happily sleeping.

8:05am // Still hanging out in bed while BK snoozes and Tiny Krueger is wiggling up a storm. 

9:30am // I'm "working" on the ball and he's "working" over the phone.

10:25am // Breakfast at Bookman's

11:00am // 20 millionth bathroom break of the day and a bump photo

11:45am // Since Tiny Krueger is refusing to come out we get to do fun tests!

Since I was overdue we needed to do a NonStress Test to check out the baby's heartbeat and movements to make sure everything was still going smoothly. This is a standard "test" once you reach 41 weeks and if you go beyond that. Our results from this test were normal. We left our appointment with instructions to relax, eat normally, and take some walks to encourage baby out. So we did just that with a walk downtown to pick up some tea and we returned home for lunch. 

1:30pm // tea drinking and ball bouncing in between today's appointments

3:15pm // The radiologists keyboard reminds me of something that would be on a spaceship.

Another standard "overdue" test is to measure the amniotic fluid via ultrasound. We headed to the local hospital for the scan. The radiologist said the fluids were a little low but sent us home. Within an hour our midwife was calling and encouraging us to head to the hospital for induction. It wasn't part of the plan but it was now necessary to get the baby to come. We arrived at the hospital around 5:30pm. 

6:45pm // After some normal late term testing the plans have changed and we are hanging out in Labor & Delivery

7:47pm // Signing paperwork for the impending arrival of Tiny Krueger

9:45pm // Getting this party started. Walking the halls and doing squats to encourage the little one out

11:43pm // Not exactly what I had in mind when I talked about a new piercing! Ending the day thinking it is highly ironic that the one time I choose to fully participate in Day in the Life is the day I end up in the hospital. Oh life!


So that is a peek into what our Tuesday looked like. It started out pretty normal but ended with being admitted to the hospital and starting our unplanned route of meeting our baby. It was far from a normal day. I am not sure if or how I will fit this day into a project but I am really glad I have the limited photos and captions from my IG posts. I am also unsure if I will be sharing a full on birth story any time soon simply because it was just so long and emotionally draining being in the hospital and laboring for nearly 40 hours. So for now, it is nice having this little look at where that journey started. 

Thursday, May 21, 2015

He's Here!!


Theodore Mason arrived Thursday May 14, 2015 at 1:12pm weighing 6lbs 10oz and 19in long!
More details to come soon.

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

Thoughts on Pregnancy

We are slowly inching closer to the finish line. Every day, when I look at the calendar, I am slightly shocked by the amount of time left before this little one is here. In 3-ish weeks we will have a child to actually parent, not just a belly bump to talk and sing to, and rub on.

That last sentence scares me a bit. While I feel more than ready, I also feel completely unprepared. Does that make sense? 

Maybe it is the amount of change happening all at once. Or the fact that we don't really have anything set up. Maybe it is just me being hormonal. Which is entirely possible. Maybe this is what becoming a mother means. Worrying about silly things even when you know it is all going to be okay. 

I think some of these feelings and thoughts come from pregnancy not being what I had expected it to be. While I have been blessed to have a "smooth" pregnancy, it definitely is not as easy and beautiful as often depicted. I think like most, I was expecting stereotypical horrible morning sickness throughout the first trimester and then a redeeming burst of energy and feeling good during the second. Not here. 

For me, second trimester was marked by malaise, apathy, and a ton of aches and pains. I felt good for maybe 6 weeks. At the 25 week mark I developed severe pelvic girdle pain and pubic symphysis dysfunction. I never imagined that it could be considered "normal" to feel like my pelvis would shatter into a million pieces just by trying to roll over at night. So knowing that my expectations of how pregnancy was going to be were inaccurate makes me nervous about how labor and parenting are going to be. 

With all that complaining out of the way, I have to say that despite feeling "not myself" I am extremely thankful and amazed by all that my body is doing. Going into pregnancy, my blood pressure and heart rate had always been all over the place. My blood sugar was questionable and I was considered obese. Throughout my pregnancy, I am the healthiest I have been in years. My vitals have stabilized, my blood sugars are normal. That is so mindboggling to me but I remain overall incredibly thankful for this whole experience that is only just beginning. 

Wednesday, March 18, 2015

March | Currently


reaching the beginning of the eighth month! 
wondering where the time has gone.
crying at all the things including (but not limited to) cute animals, radio songs, and not knowing what to eat. 
recuperating after a much needed trip to California last week. 
missing being surrounded by my huge extended family and our friends that are like family.
thankful for our ever growing Fire Family all across the country.
overwhelmed by the unending love and support from all of them. 
bringing all the baby things into the house.
installing our own baby seat into the car.
turning our spare/craft room into a temporary guest/baby stuff storage room. 
embracing the upcoming changes. 
leaning into the unknown. 
reading consent forms and handouts and informational pamphlets.
putting a pause on any other reading as I can't focus.
packing lesser used items here and there. 
tossing the unneeded things
watching the temperatures bounce all over the place. 
loving (secretly) the random blizzards we've been getting this month.
resting as much as this little one will let me. 
counting down the remaining days. Just about 50 left.

Monday, February 23, 2015

Big News!


Do you want to know what is equally nerve wrecking and exciting at the same time? Finding out, at 28 weeks pregnant, that your husband got a permanent position that requires you to move 4 hours from where you have spent the last 10 years! Wanna know what is even more crazy? Realizing that your husband will have to move 6 weeks before your due date! 

We have been waiting for Berkeley to get a permanent position with the US Forest Service for over 6 years now. Hiring for Federal Wildland Firefighting is unique and the first two weeks of February is a crucial time where it seems like the rules are made up and things move in the blink of an eye. For us, Berkeley had a telephone interview on a Friday around 3pm and was offered the position Saturday morning by 9am. And he accepted by 10am! Yes, we made a huge life decision in less than hour with a single face to face conversation and single text that read "If you think this is the right job, Take It! And we'll figure out the rest later."

We are currently in that "figure the rest out later" stage. What we do know is that in roughly a month Berkeley will be moving to start his new position while I spend the last 6 or so weeks of pregnancy in Flagstaff. Insert a million crazy feelings here. Berkeley will be back and forth as May nears and will hopefully spend two weeks here once the baby arrives. The current plan has the baby and I joining Berkeley by June! 

Since all hell broke loose late in 2013, we had somewhat joked that May 2015 would be our New Year. After so many losses and set backs and now we are thisclose to two of our biggest goals/dreams becoming reality! We used that benchmark as a year since someone close to us passed away. Then we found out that was when Baby is due. Now, by the end of May we'll be a family of 3 in a new home with a permanent Federal position. This really is turning out to be our New Year!
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